Ok well here I am, having said I won’t blog till its over. Well I lied. Typed this thesis on my way to uni today on my laptop.

Well its been a hell of a semester to date and I can see the pressure of all the work due soon bearing down on everyone, even myself. This week has been a hectic one indeed. My primary monitor sort of died on me and so did my sisters computer. Her computer luckily was easy enough to fix. Took a whole day of looking around for the part…which was just a stupid CPU fan. But my monitor is gona be out of order for some time. Luckily Morgan lent one of his old monitors to me. My monitor kept on doing a Gaussian blur effect, which looked sorta cool but not for working with. You got a headache and man did it screw with your vision. So yea $3k screen down the drain ☹

My packaging assignment for Portfolio went well…I felt really good after Andy said he liked my design and how I had made it. Took 5 freakin days of planning and cutting stuff out with a guillotine. Then that night we went to the Xbox 360 launch party. I think I needed to spend some time with friends, met up with Sean and Morgan…who I sneaked in. Yea we had a great time…the party was at Home nightclub. Funny enough this Xbox party had no playable Xbox 360s…which is there next generation console.

I guess what’s sort of pissed me off has been the Cofa ball…but i think ill think about that some other time..too freakin tired to care about that anymore.

Now back to PrePress and Digicomp printing……

Well its been a while since i last posted a message up, to date we have
had Johnn's 21st party which was great. The video was recieved better
than i had thought, glad the time and effort payed off. Which reminds
me I have to find another 20-40hrs to make Sean's 21st video.
Hopefully i can enlist Morgan to help with that....can't pull off another
solo opp like that with all my uni work due soon.

Mind you im Working to full capacity at the moment, with my all
resources streched to the limit....My to do and reminder list is growing
rapidly, i wish i had an office full of people to dedicate some of the work
too...who knows maybe one day i will....but for now its a solo opp....as
David always puts it. its something like 2 pages in size 9 font...i hope i
can eliminate some of the critical ones soon....like the uni work for Digi
Comp and Portfolio stuff. Then there is the Cofa BDM ball...need to sort
things out with that too...somehow...at the moment i seem to be the only
one thinking about it...i need to get into gear and order ppl around and
start some serious organising...otherwise, no BDM Ball :( and everyone is
gona say i screwed up. i'll see if Morgan and Kaywan can help me out with
finding a place...ive seen a few places but i think we have to look another
time or so...hopefully i can get Debs to come too...so we can make
an executive decision.

On the hardware front...Don'y have time to dream about better monitor
setups...My G5 is just coping with bare minimum hard disk room and ram.
I didn't eve imagine i could give so much workload to slow down a dual
CPU machine...damm Macs...jst kiddin Adam...its an awsome machine.
But having had to maintain Ladan's computer as well...which is still an
on going task...sort out dad's new computer..has been at times a
logistical nightmare.

Sleep....whats that...nah my sleep pattern is at the moment screwed
beyond belief. Two days ago i woke up at 9am after a 6hr sleep..did
some stuff...then layed down and i was out cold for another 6-7hours.
Lately it seems if i just lie down anywhere or get to comfy i pass out
to sleep..it happened last night too..and whats scarry was that Morgan
was sitting there in front of me and the last thing i remember was
talking to him, don't even remember walking him out the door...sorry
buddy...the only other person that has happened to was Sean, but that
was quite some time ago...so gota address the sleep issues asap... with
better sleep patterns.

In other news Kaywan made a return to Aus, he went to Iran, Spain and
Germany...so he is definately on the ASIO top most wanted lists...good
on ya habib...nah..jks. He had a long desrved vacation, he was under
quite a bit of stress lately from life in general...mind you to my
amazement he is exactly the same....some of us thought he would have
a life changing experince..seeing Iran but i think he wasn't there long
enough. His escapade in Spain was one for the books though...its funny
stuff indeed.

I think im really gona need a break after all this is over or a strecher.
Wish i had more time to hang out with Adam at Maccas late nights like
we used to and discuss stuff...but with the dad impounding the car from
us...its sort of hard to now and plus Adam seems bussy all the time too
...anyhow Now that dad has got his promo...he has stopped mentioning
anything about paying him back for the car...which is good....so now i can
save for Noosa hopefully.

Morgan is moving out at the end of the month...from his place in
Chatswood :( gona really miss that place. It used to feel like a 2nd
home to me and legz. Now that they are going to Anandale its gona
be a real treck getting there.

One thing is better this semester...i have much higher self esteem
and im not depressed about issues with friends etc..Im just gona
have to cope with the storm...I predicted this semester will be a
firestorm and thats exactly what we got...should become a
weatherman.

So till then I think im gona leave blogging for a while...maybe after
everything is done and i have survived the war. So tillthen good luck to
everyone doing there major work etc. We will succeed team.

Well busy busy week so far…lot of video editing non-stop for my Omega project...quite a few sleepless nights ahead with that one I think....also helped out Fiona with her Digicomp studio shoot this week which I almost missed cause I slept in, but with some clever moves and alternative transport arrangements I made it there in time...had some fun with that and some nice cookies which Fiona had brought along...but Phill ended up telling Fi she can shoot at home, cause her shoots at home were even better. Anyways Fi still owes me a big nice Chock mint milkshake....looking forward to that.

Then went to the city with Sean and later joined by Morgan to look for venues for Sean’s S party as well as the BDM ball we spent till like 12:30 looking before places stopped letting us look through the sweats.

We had a lil meetup at GPK in chatty and had a lil celebration for Johnny too…which was cool….missed having Adam and the rest of the crew together.
Got Adobe SC2 suite off Morgz...thats gona be Hot....Johnny and Fi got a copy too...hope you enjoy it too guys and gals.

Going to kill myself at this rate...gota do more filming too next week, ma so behind...then Digicomp work...organising the BDM ball or whatever its going be called. Johnny's bday...Noosa...etc.

Last night was one of nights when everything that could go wrong went wrong.....and Fiona was through it all, so i'd like to say sorry for making you suffer...mind you you were laughing your head off for most of it so i guess i hope you enjoyed it.

We were going to Adam's place for some chow....and no Johnny not Jason Chow....lol. Anyhow we were gona have pizza from red Centre delivered to Adam's but the pizza place said no discount is offered if the pizza is delivered....so after finding the car keys that dad had hidden from me...Fiona and i embarked to our first stop off Coles...which i forgot where it was along the way.......then we went to Adams place and Adam instructed us how to get to the pizza place....and i thought i remembered it but the first turn i made was the wrong turn.....so were doomed from the very beginning and what was even more funny was that Adam called the very second we made the wrong turn, anyways i took my way which is a bit longer and even then i managed to make a turn into a dead-end street somehow. Anyways we got to the Redcentre and as we walked in we saw Morgan.....me and fi were both like WTF....Morgan was like im working here now....anyways we grabbed the pizzas and as we headed out I saw Morgan pulling out.....but i also noticed that Sean was in the passenger seat and i was like no this is definitely not right.....i tired to stop them and they laughed and attempted to ram me over with the car (not really, we do that all the time) anyhow they went and then came back to see what we were doing....at this stage Fiona was going to kill me it was like almost 10pm and her tummy was empty....so i said goodbye to the other 2 amigos and got back and throttled it over to Adams....

wish we spent more time with Adam but Fiona was about to fall into deep sleep and had to get back by midnight...the poor girl was so drained....but we still had a great time there and proceeded to head back. Hope you like the videos i made you Adam, there will be more in store ;) for ya buddy. So we then made our way to Fionas place and after stopping off briefly at Fi's place and getting a wake up dose of coffee i headed back home...Ladan was awake still watching Jerry Maguire....then before i knew it Sean and Morgan arrived and we began cooking some type of cake mix (Triple Chocolate Fudge Brownies)....yes we make cake at 1am.....well Morgan and Sean were our cooks this night.

Last night Legz & Adam went over some issues that i was facing...its been some time since we had a Maccas run...plus it was in the new Camry it was an old experience in the new cruiser.

Anyhow the meat of the night was really when we began talking about stuff in Maccas.......I guess the first thing was the argument with dad earlier on in the night etc. but as we dug in deeper and deeper we saw that the whole issue manifested itself like a virus….from other matters but I guess I don’t really want to go into that.

Anyhow ill keep it short......basically i should have had this conversation with someone much much earlier but at the end of the day im glad i did and i hope the results will not only help me

I'm sorry for being so much of a "shit stirrer" lately....I guess i didn't realize how much of it I had done to everyone lately.....its only being since Ladan, Sean and Adam highlighted it that i have taken action to reduce and eliminate myself from doing so...because before i used to never do it....so i know im capable of stopping it. I need to stop looking at every encounter as a conflict or battle scenario otherwise I will loose those I care around me….which I do dread even the thought of very much.

On other notes I apologized to dad this morning and yes dad told me exactly what I expected….that he was right ;) and Morgan dosen’t know anything about blah balh……Adam your so right dad likes thinking his right…..and I guess in some ways im like that ☹

Anyways on his to do’s today is to return an ipod adptor he bought for recording music from his piano which cost a tad bit $80…..which I know the store won’t take back because although we have the item…its manuals and receipt there is no packaging but dad insists on me getting a refund based on what the sales staff had said to him will do what he wanted….and if the sales staff refuse tell them your not interested in talking to them and that you want to talk to someone with authority like a manager…I know they wouldn’t return it because our store which has a very lax return policy won’t take things back without its packaging….anyhow I agree with what adam said last night….dad wants me to be an arsehole about it.

That reminds me of discussion I had with May long ago about stuff in our lives....like relationships and stuff….. Anyhow her advice to me is that im too much of a nice guy and hence ppl take advantage of me or just shit all over me…. So in her words i need to become more of an arsehole too....she reckons girls like arseholes more too so im going to better off that way....but i guess thats just her taste...wonder why dad wants me to be like that too.

Anyways thanx for everything Ladan and Adam you guys are the best….Your right ive been dealing with a lot of unfair shit on me lately hence ive been over stressed….i need some time out..I guess I have a lot to think about and to contemplate now…….ill take what you guys said on board.

I lost it today with dad, tonight......he just pushed and pushed till i lost it....we had an argument which went on for 1/2 an hour. He made us walk to the library at 8:22 at night cause they were overdue....i was about to go with Ladan but mum said she was coming too.....anyhow we walked there cause dad wouldn't let us drive there.....they were ladan's books by the way..not mine.....but i was partly responsible because i didn't return them today b4 work. He was being really unfair.....I mean as soon as i got home his like have you haven’t done your tasks for the day. Which i hadn't got around to doing because i was at work a majority of the day and hence i was tired..so his like why didn't you get up earlier and get them done.

Then he went on about all these things:
• Wasting time & money on things like organizing our formals which Ladan is doing for her year and im doing for BDM
• Wasting time thinkling of saving up for trips at the end of the year…instead of considering putting money to help with paying off the car or helping the family pay off the mortgage on the house quicker
• He reckons that our family Doctor who signed a piece of paper saying that conventional vacuums are not made to accept small dust particles is wrong....because he is not an engineer like him. So he doesn't understand the mechanics of it.....im freakin sure the doctor knows what he is talking about and i am allergic to it....which the doctor said was a good thing to picked up because i can avoid it now.
• Morgan knows nothing about this vacume matter either because he is young....and the dust purifier he lent us…..because the purifier he lent us is a tool for rich people who know nothing and want to waste money.
• Having a choclate bar while he was talking...even pissed him off cause he said ladan might see it....which is freakin stupid because ladan got it for me....because i picked her up from Gym that night....which he thought was un-nessisary, for a car trip....and that Ladan could have walked home...this was at 7pm by the way....his like why does she deserve a lift in the car, she can walk home....she didn't do anything....im like dad she is tired, she just went to the gym.

See with our dad sometimes you just can’t can’t get anywhere because if you don’t argue, He presumes he is right and he has proven his point so hence i have to pay for the car and believe all this stuff above.

most other peoples parents like Morgan, Sean's...David...Adam....Kaywan... they don't do this....well anyways guess what im not givin up....The Marines don't fucken give up like that....we will prevail and show him we can be successful individuals and live happy and fulfilling lives...rather than this stingy existence.

I just need some time to cool off now I guess…….i was fine till he brought all this stuff up I guess….i guess I should have being a bit more calm about it all. So yea gona try to avoid talking to him for awhile till I feel non-confontational.

Anyhow sorry for all this rant but i feel better just saying it.....then i don't think about it as much...gona see Adam and maybe Sean tonight....so hopefully ill feel better later on.

Today is the day of the Chad

Its been a long long interesting day….I watched Contact till 4:30 then woke up went to uni for a consultation with Andy at 11:00 which ended up going till 2:00. No it wasn’t just Andy consulting with me …I mean our group. But yea it was great….Andy gave me all his videos on his laptop. Some great shit I tell you people….I already gave a copy to Mr.Phoreal, im happy to give a copy to anyone interested.

Anyhow our prepress class was great we ended up going on an excursion to PowerHouse Museum….on the way Mr.Phoreal gave Conrad a new nick name, a name that will stay with Conrad for quite some time to come….even Bronwin (our lecturer) at the end of the excursion gave in and called Conrad…Chad. Go Chad your our man.

Here are some pics of Chad in action*…enjoy:



*these photos have been approved by Chad for viewing purposes.