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2005-10-13T20:53:00.000+10:00

Ok well here I am, having said I won’t blog till its over. Well I lied. Typed this thesis on my way to uni today on my laptop.

Well its been a hell of a semester to date and I can see the pressure of all the work due soon bearing down on everyone, even myself. This week has been a hectic one indeed. My primary monitor sort of died on me and so did my sisters computer. Her computer luckily was easy enough to fix. Took a whole day of looking around for the part…which was just a stupid CPU fan. But my monitor is gona be out of order for some time. Luckily Morgan lent one of his old monitors to me. My monitor kept on doing a Gaussian blur effect, which looked sorta cool but not for working with. You got a headache and man did it screw with your vision. So yea $3k screen down the drain ☹

My packaging assignment for Portfolio went well…I felt really good after Andy said he liked my design and how I had made it. Took 5 freakin days of planning and cutting stuff out with a guillotine. Then that night we went to the Xbox 360 launch party. I think I needed to spend some time with friends, met up with Sean and Morgan…who I sneaked in. Yea we had a great time…the party was at Home nightclub. Funny enough this Xbox party had no playable Xbox 360s…which is there next generation console.

I guess what’s sort of pissed me off has been the Cofa ball…but i think ill think about that some other time..too freakin tired to care about that anymore.

Now back to PrePress and Digicomp printing……

2005-09-15T11:19:00.000+10:00

Well its been a while since i last posted a message up, to date we have
had Johnn's 21st party which was great. The video was recieved better
than i had thought, glad the time and effort payed off. Which reminds
me I have to find another 20-40hrs to make Sean's 21st video.
Hopefully i can enlist Morgan to help with that....can't pull off another
solo opp like that with all my uni work due soon.

Mind you im Working to full capacity at the moment, with my all
resources streched to the limit....My to do and reminder list is growing
rapidly, i wish i had an office full of people to dedicate some of the work
too...who knows maybe one day i will....but for now its a solo opp....as
David always puts it. its something like 2 pages in size 9 font...i hope i
can eliminate some of the critical ones soon....like the uni work for Digi
Comp and Portfolio stuff. Then there is the Cofa BDM ball...need to sort
things out with that too...somehow...at the moment i seem to be the only
one thinking about it...i need to get into gear and order ppl around and
start some serious organising...otherwise, no BDM Ball :( and everyone is
gona say i screwed up. i'll see if Morgan and Kaywan can help me out with
finding a place...ive seen a few places but i think we have to look another
time or so...hopefully i can get Debs to come too...so we can make
an executive decision.

On the hardware front...Don'y have time to dream about better monitor
setups...My G5 is just coping with bare minimum hard disk room and ram.
I didn't eve imagine i could give so much workload to slow down a dual
CPU machine...damm Macs...jst kiddin Adam...its an awsome machine.
But having had to maintain Ladan's computer as well...which is still an
on going task...sort out dad's new computer..has been at times a
logistical nightmare.

Sleep....whats that...nah my sleep pattern is at the moment screwed
beyond belief. Two days ago i woke up at 9am after a 6hr sleep..did
some stuff...then layed down and i was out cold for another 6-7hours.
Lately it seems if i just lie down anywhere or get to comfy i pass out
to sleep..it happened last night too..and whats scarry was that Morgan
was sitting there in front of me and the last thing i remember was
talking to him, don't even remember walking him out the door...sorry
buddy...the only other person that has happened to was Sean, but that
was quite some time ago...so gota address the sleep issues asap... with
better sleep patterns.

In other news Kaywan made a return to Aus, he went to Iran, Spain and
Germany...so he is definately on the ASIO top most wanted lists...good
on ya habib...nah..jks. He had a long desrved vacation, he was under
quite a bit of stress lately from life in general...mind you to my
amazement he is exactly the same....some of us thought he would have
a life changing experince..seeing Iran but i think he wasn't there long
enough. His escapade in Spain was one for the books though...its funny
stuff indeed.

I think im really gona need a break after all this is over or a strecher.
Wish i had more time to hang out with Adam at Maccas late nights like
we used to and discuss stuff...but with the dad impounding the car from
us...its sort of hard to now and plus Adam seems bussy all the time too
...anyhow Now that dad has got his promo...he has stopped mentioning
anything about paying him back for the car...which is good....so now i can
save for Noosa hopefully.

Morgan is moving out at the end of the month...from his place in
Chatswood :( gona really miss that place. It used to feel like a 2nd
home to me and legz. Now that they are going to Anandale its gona
be a real treck getting there.

One thing is better this semester...i have much higher self esteem
and im not depressed about issues with friends etc..Im just gona
have to cope with the storm...I predicted this semester will be a
firestorm and thats exactly what we got...should become a
weatherman.

So till then I think im gona leave blogging for a while...maybe after
everything is done and i have survived the war. So tillthen good luck to
everyone doing there major work etc. We will succeed team.

2005-09-02T07:36:00.000+10:00

Well busy busy week so far…lot of video editing non-stop for my Omega project...quite a few sleepless nights ahead with that one I think....also helped out Fiona with her Digicomp studio shoot this week which I almost missed cause I slept in, but with some clever moves and alternative transport arrangements I made it there in time...had some fun with that and some nice cookies which Fiona had brought along...but Phill ended up telling Fi she can shoot at home, cause her shoots at home were even better. Anyways Fi still owes me a big nice Chock mint milkshake....looking forward to that.

Then went to the city with Sean and later joined by Morgan to look for venues for Sean’s S party as well as the BDM ball we spent till like 12:30 looking before places stopped letting us look through the sweats.

We had a lil meetup at GPK in chatty and had a lil celebration for Johnny too…which was cool….missed having Adam and the rest of the crew together.
Got Adobe SC2 suite off Morgz...thats gona be Hot....Johnny and Fi got a copy too...hope you enjoy it too guys and gals.

Going to kill myself at this rate...gota do more filming too next week, ma so behind...then Digicomp work...organising the BDM ball or whatever its going be called. Johnny's bday...Noosa...etc.

2005-08-26T12:17:00.000+10:00

Last night was one of nights when everything that could go wrong went wrong.....and Fiona was through it all, so i'd like to say sorry for making you suffer...mind you you were laughing your head off for most of it so i guess i hope you enjoyed it.

We were going to Adam's place for some chow....and no Johnny not Jason Chow....lol. Anyhow we were gona have pizza from red Centre delivered to Adam's but the pizza place said no discount is offered if the pizza is delivered....so after finding the car keys that dad had hidden from me...Fiona and i embarked to our first stop off Coles...which i forgot where it was along the way.......then we went to Adams place and Adam instructed us how to get to the pizza place....and i thought i remembered it but the first turn i made was the wrong turn.....so were doomed from the very beginning and what was even more funny was that Adam called the very second we made the wrong turn, anyways i took my way which is a bit longer and even then i managed to make a turn into a dead-end street somehow. Anyways we got to the Redcentre and as we walked in we saw Morgan.....me and fi were both like WTF....Morgan was like im working here now....anyways we grabbed the pizzas and as we headed out I saw Morgan pulling out.....but i also noticed that Sean was in the passenger seat and i was like no this is definitely not right.....i tired to stop them and they laughed and attempted to ram me over with the car (not really, we do that all the time) anyhow they went and then came back to see what we were doing....at this stage Fiona was going to kill me it was like almost 10pm and her tummy was empty....so i said goodbye to the other 2 amigos and got back and throttled it over to Adams....

wish we spent more time with Adam but Fiona was about to fall into deep sleep and had to get back by midnight...the poor girl was so drained....but we still had a great time there and proceeded to head back. Hope you like the videos i made you Adam, there will be more in store ;) for ya buddy. So we then made our way to Fionas place and after stopping off briefly at Fi's place and getting a wake up dose of coffee i headed back home...Ladan was awake still watching Jerry Maguire....then before i knew it Sean and Morgan arrived and we began cooking some type of cake mix (Triple Chocolate Fudge Brownies)....yes we make cake at 1am.....well Morgan and Sean were our cooks this night.

2005-08-20T08:31:00.000+10:00

Last night Legz & Adam went over some issues that i was facing...its been some time since we had a Maccas run...plus it was in the new Camry it was an old experience in the new cruiser.

Anyhow the meat of the night was really when we began talking about stuff in Maccas.......I guess the first thing was the argument with dad earlier on in the night etc. but as we dug in deeper and deeper we saw that the whole issue manifested itself like a virus….from other matters but I guess I don’t really want to go into that.

Anyhow ill keep it short......basically i should have had this conversation with someone much much earlier but at the end of the day im glad i did and i hope the results will not only help me

I'm sorry for being so much of a "shit stirrer" lately....I guess i didn't realize how much of it I had done to everyone lately.....its only being since Ladan, Sean and Adam highlighted it that i have taken action to reduce and eliminate myself from doing so...because before i used to never do it....so i know im capable of stopping it. I need to stop looking at every encounter as a conflict or battle scenario otherwise I will loose those I care around me….which I do dread even the thought of very much.

On other notes I apologized to dad this morning and yes dad told me exactly what I expected….that he was right ;) and Morgan dosen’t know anything about blah balh……Adam your so right dad likes thinking his right…..and I guess in some ways im like that ☹

Anyways on his to do’s today is to return an ipod adptor he bought for recording music from his piano which cost a tad bit $80…..which I know the store won’t take back because although we have the item…its manuals and receipt there is no packaging but dad insists on me getting a refund based on what the sales staff had said to him will do what he wanted….and if the sales staff refuse tell them your not interested in talking to them and that you want to talk to someone with authority like a manager…I know they wouldn’t return it because our store which has a very lax return policy won’t take things back without its packaging….anyhow I agree with what adam said last night….dad wants me to be an arsehole about it.

That reminds me of discussion I had with May long ago about stuff in our lives....like relationships and stuff….. Anyhow her advice to me is that im too much of a nice guy and hence ppl take advantage of me or just shit all over me…. So in her words i need to become more of an arsehole too....she reckons girls like arseholes more too so im going to better off that way....but i guess thats just her taste...wonder why dad wants me to be like that too.

Anyways thanx for everything Ladan and Adam you guys are the best….Your right ive been dealing with a lot of unfair shit on me lately hence ive been over stressed….i need some time out..I guess I have a lot to think about and to contemplate now…….ill take what you guys said on board.

2005-08-19T21:39:00.000+10:00

I lost it today with dad, tonight......he just pushed and pushed till i lost it....we had an argument which went on for 1/2 an hour. He made us walk to the library at 8:22 at night cause they were overdue....i was about to go with Ladan but mum said she was coming too.....anyhow we walked there cause dad wouldn't let us drive there.....they were ladan's books by the way..not mine.....but i was partly responsible because i didn't return them today b4 work. He was being really unfair.....I mean as soon as i got home his like have you haven’t done your tasks for the day. Which i hadn't got around to doing because i was at work a majority of the day and hence i was tired..so his like why didn't you get up earlier and get them done.

Then he went on about all these things:
• Wasting time & money on things like organizing our formals which Ladan is doing for her year and im doing for BDM
• Wasting time thinkling of saving up for trips at the end of the year…instead of considering putting money to help with paying off the car or helping the family pay off the mortgage on the house quicker
• He reckons that our family Doctor who signed a piece of paper saying that conventional vacuums are not made to accept small dust particles is wrong....because he is not an engineer like him. So he doesn't understand the mechanics of it.....im freakin sure the doctor knows what he is talking about and i am allergic to it....which the doctor said was a good thing to picked up because i can avoid it now.
• Morgan knows nothing about this vacume matter either because he is young....and the dust purifier he lent us…..because the purifier he lent us is a tool for rich people who know nothing and want to waste money.
• Having a choclate bar while he was talking...even pissed him off cause he said ladan might see it....which is freakin stupid because ladan got it for me....because i picked her up from Gym that night....which he thought was un-nessisary, for a car trip....and that Ladan could have walked home...this was at 7pm by the way....his like why does she deserve a lift in the car, she can walk home....she didn't do anything....im like dad she is tired, she just went to the gym.

See with our dad sometimes you just can’t can’t get anywhere because if you don’t argue, He presumes he is right and he has proven his point so hence i have to pay for the car and believe all this stuff above.

most other peoples parents like Morgan, Sean's...David...Adam....Kaywan... they don't do this....well anyways guess what im not givin up....The Marines don't fucken give up like that....we will prevail and show him we can be successful individuals and live happy and fulfilling lives...rather than this stingy existence.

I just need some time to cool off now I guess…….i was fine till he brought all this stuff up I guess….i guess I should have being a bit more calm about it all. So yea gona try to avoid talking to him for awhile till I feel non-confontational.

Anyhow sorry for all this rant but i feel better just saying it.....then i don't think about it as much...gona see Adam and maybe Sean tonight....so hopefully ill feel better later on.

2005-08-18T19:01:00.000+10:00

Today is the day of the Chad

Its been a long long interesting day….I watched Contact till 4:30 then woke up went to uni for a consultation with Andy at 11:00 which ended up going till 2:00. No it wasn’t just Andy consulting with me …I mean our group. But yea it was great….Andy gave me all his videos on his laptop. Some great shit I tell you people….I already gave a copy to Mr.Phoreal, im happy to give a copy to anyone interested.

Anyhow our prepress class was great we ended up going on an excursion to PowerHouse Museum….on the way Mr.Phoreal gave Conrad a new nick name, a name that will stay with Conrad for quite some time to come….even Bronwin (our lecturer) at the end of the excursion gave in and called Conrad…Chad. Go Chad your our man.

Here are some pics of Chad in action*…enjoy:

*these photos have been approved by Chad for viewing purposes.

2005-08-17T10:42:00.000+10:00

Thanx for a great 22nd bday everyone
Adam cheers for organising everything and i hope you enjoyed the Persain cuisine
Thanx for the mint cake Fiona....im glad u know how much i love it

And also thanx to Legz, Sean and Morgz for the night b4....turning up at 1:30am with a cake at my door.

When i get some pics from Adz and Fi i will post them up :)

P.s. Funniest msg on my bday card was i guess:

Happy 22nd man ! Look, I even drew you a comic ..keep it safe.
when you get your $100k one day, gimme a ride. And i'll let you touch my leg.

Mr. Phoreal

My response: Any time man.....my pleasure, ill take as many of you as i can and we will go on a road trip with it together when i get it.

2005-08-15T19:25:00.000+10:00

Well stuff has being going along...and as i predicted at the beginning of this semster it is drama packed and with all sorts of shit happening left right and centre....shit has hit the fan multiple times but us Marines are tough umbrays. We can handle almost anything.

But i guess the amount of good things that have happened, outweigh the bad or anoying stuff. The bad well without going into too much detail....bascially...My bday in my dads opinion isn't a big deal and we have to move on and get the car issue sorted....because its my fault it arised....its usually like this fixing issues that are other ppls faults. My dad likes being in command...he is a 10 star general, he outranks anyone...even the president in some cases, for example he told us this story the other day that he saw a doctor and dad told the doctor what to prescribe him...the doctor was much younger than dad and gave him something else...dad went back and told him off and got what he wanted, the younger doctor was pissed off but in the end gave him what he wanted. :) see the situation im dealing with here.

Well I guess you would think I'd be pissed at dad after him managing to screw up my bday plans...sorry Adam and anyone else involved. I know he doesn't understand the value of friends..its as simple as that. His like.... well you will have a bday next year too why can't your uni friends get together and plan something then...when your not in debt. I was like its not the same...ppl will move on, then dad was like well you will meet more people in your industry. I guess dad is really geared for success...thats his primary goal.....not that its bad....but not very fair or balanced as i see it. But anyhow his my dad and i have to accept him for that.

Anyways after cleaning the garage today, i went to check my throat with our local family doctor...cause my throat is killing me, i couldn't even have toast this morning...it hurt so much...so i had chocolate milk and dad gave me some Cepacol....which is starting to help. Anyhow the doc said their is no easy fix solution so he gave me an inhaler and some other medicine....and also said to avoid cold drinks, fruit juices and large chewy foods like steak :s

Oh and since dad wants me to pay him about 1/2 the cost of the new car....its gona mean im gona have to take more shifts at work :( but thats gona sux cause then i dunno if i can save enough to go on the Noosa trip at the end of the year....don't know anymore.

Anyhow for the good news....Im going to the Macromdeia V8.0 launch in Aus on the 22nd of Aug and that night going to the Sony PSP launch in the city...which im really looking forward to.

Also i met the founder of StorageKing at work the other day.....who will let me review his car....which is the first BMW M5 - E60, V10 in Australia. The $200,000 car is awesome and i have already asked Sean, Morgan, Adam, Johnny to assist. This is gona be sooooo Coool.

I got bored later and really needed to get away from everything...so I went to the Lexus dealer......and pretended i was in the market for a Lexus. I was quite impressed with some facts i learnt about Lexus:

Fact: In the 15 years Lexus has brought cars to Australia..... not a single person has died in a car accident in a Lexus car.

Fact: Lexus makes the quietest cars interiors in the world

Fact: Lexus has the best build quality in its passenger cars

2005-08-13T18:09:00.000+10:00

Today was an interesting day ...I was a witness in an interrogation at work. Basically one of my work mates was accused of speaking behind the store managers back and another work colleague.....anyhow its a long standing issue and yes our store manager is a dickhead...but that’s just how he is...you have to accept it at the end of the day, anyhow someone had heard my mate say some shit and reported it to head office...so they sent this guy from HR (Human Resources)...this guy was like a detective, he didn't smile once and he was as cold and calculating as they came....I thought first time i saw him i was in shit. Mind you the nature of what he was doing was serious...so if they went some really happy guy, well no one would take his threats seriously. The store manager was also in the room as the primary witness, i was the secondary witness...in the store managers little office :(

Anyhow i felt bad for my friend...he is a really nice guy, some ppl just pick on him cause he is too nice and that he doesn’t like ppl who are arseholes. Anyways I was a witness so basically I had to sit and listen to the accusations being read out and my mate plead innocent...i felt like i was in my movie for a sec. My mate was in deep shit...it was the first and last warning they were issuing him...the guy had gone through so much shit for doing his job....he is one of the smartest guys i know working there...but anyhow that’s life.

I spoke to Phill later about it....Phil is an Asian Aussie..born here and the oldest staff member on the sales floor. We sometimes call him Mr Miagy cause is a black belt in Kirate and a Vietnam War vet. He is like 40 something....but he is really wise and hard working..... we all look up to him. I always speak to him about Vietnam and what he did as a soldier for the Australian Army...he is always keen to tell me about his past and i find it quite fascinating.

Ohhh and a thanx goes out to Jing one of the girls at customer service who is really nice…we always get along together…and she noticed my hands and saw they were bleeding…no I didn’t get in a fight…like some ppl asked me…its cause they get dry really bad…because I wash them too much…so she gave me some moisturiser cream. Its odd cause she lives up stair in the apartment blocks….and her husband since he works at home always drops in to check on her….i guess its sweet but sometimes it’s a bit too much….me thinks. Anyways thanx again Jing ☺ ur the best.

Work work work...i usually never talk about work so much....well what else happens at work...i think it was last week our store manager started this incentive policy for selling warranties. Basically ppl who couldn't sell warranties have to sing karaoke in front of the store....i told him to screw himself cause i don't sing and if i do its for a special occasion and this is not very special at all....anyhow that weekend i sold 2 warranties that day, that’s the most i have ever sold in a day..so no Karaoke for me....pheww.

Cool things i noticed at work today:
* Sony PSP :: http://www.us.playstation.com/psp.aspx
* Acer Ferrari 4000 Laptop :: http://www.acer.com.au/Ferrari4000/index.html

2005-08-12T20:14:00.000+10:00

I know its a little expensive but its sooo cool....The LaCie electron22blueIV pictured here is a 22inch CRT and its freakin awsome...sure it still costs a bit $1690. If u don't believe me check it out:

" If the best possible image quality is what you need, regardless of technology, this is the monitor to go for. It is as simple as that. " --> ( http://www.pcpro.co.uk/reviews/71053/lacie-electron22blueiv.html# )

But i really need it....my current Dell Trinitron is having issues...such a colour issues and heavy ghosting and i can't be bothered sorting out a swap or anything....forget repairing it....its way out of warranty. Anyhow my bday is just around the corner ;) ....what do ppl think is their anything better out there? or omething more important i need? You know i wouldn'y mind a second hand A1A2 Abrams..... that be nice :)

Yea nothing else has happend really just random stuff...and thinking of ways to pay off my debts and bills....fun fun, then i have to save up for thrip at the end of the year.

Anyways im off to Jans gig...should be cool: Jan, Adam, Johnny, Jason, Stephen and Lucy are gona be there from what i know...so yea...and then tmrw its Mark from work's 21st bday at Monkey Bar in Chatty...then Kerry's bday. So a wkend of fun fun fun.

Anyhow have good weekend everyone :)

2005-08-11T12:15:00.000+10:00

I just wish to apologise for giving shit to anyone lately..yesterday was not the best day..things kept going wrong from the start till end. A complete contrast to the day before.

I guess what i figured at the end of the say is to chill a bit more and not get engaged in trivial matters or think too much into matters which I have no control over. I really need a break from all this and go somewhere far far away..maybe Torabora. But thats some time away...well Noosa anyways.

But anyways thanx to all my friends who stand by me through this shit. But yea Im fine now....had a cream bun and a chocolate eclair with chocolate milk...so i guess already, today is a better day. Got a long way to go, these following weeks.

Does anyone know anything about star signs...I was talking to a friend yesterday and she was saying that i fit the description of my star sign...but she didn't really explain it. So basically I had a look to learn a bit more about them...even though I really don't believe them...I found the results interesting.

Im a Leo
David is Leo
Ladan is Gemini
Sean is Gemini
Morgan is Gemini
Fi is cancer
Adam is Pisces
Kaywan is Cancer

Leo ( The Lion Leo ) = Generous and warmhearted, Creative and enthusiastic, Broad-minded and expansive, Faithful and loving, Pompous and patronizing, Bossy and interfering, Dogmatic and intolerant

Taurus (The Bull Taurus) = Patient and reliable, Warmhearted and loving,Persistent and determined, Placid and security loving, Jealous and possessive, Resentful and inflexible, Self-indulgent and greedy

Gemini (The Twins Gemini) = Adaptable and versatile, Communicative and witty, Intellectual and eloquent, Youthful and lively, Nervous and tense, Superficial and inconsistent, Cunning and inquisitive

Cancer (The Cancer Crab) = Emotional and loving, Intuitive and imaginative, Shrewd and cautious, Protective and sympathetic, Changeable and moody,Overemotional and touchy, Clinging and unable to let go

Pisces (The Fish Pisces) = Imaginative and sensitive, Compassionate and kind, Selfless and unworldly, Intuitive and sympathetic, Escapist and idealistic, Secretive and vague, Weak-willed and easily led

Please don't think too much into these or get offended by what they say because they generalize to a huge degree to fit a particular group under each star sign category. Cause i know im not intolerant or bossy...well
i hope im not. Here is my source for more reference (http://www.vangelis.com.au/12signs.asp)

*sorry if i got any starsigns wrong, i did a quick search to acquire these

2005-08-10T08:24:00.000+10:00

I had a massive headache by the end of last night so i couldn't be bothered writing my blog + there were so many good docos on SBS and ABC. One was on War in the Pacific: In colour...then there was Cocaine in Columbia and last was Foreign Corespondent. I had two panadols and washed them down with chocolate mile ;) no not the 1L jug...I made one for Ladan too and she thinks its the best one I’ve made to date...better than my coffees. Other that the rest of the day was great...hanged out with Fiona for most of the day...looking for props for her Digicomp 3 project.

As we were walking past the rocks we saw this switch on the face of a building...and it sorta reminded me of this timer switch that dad put on Ladan's computer to control when she can access the Internet...anyhow i turned it on, so hopefully Ladan...you have the net on tonight...fingers crossed ;)

So thanks to the headache I was bed ridden and Ladan thought lets watch a movie...to get my mind of the headache,, so we watched Independence day. I think i only saw half of it before i fell asleep. Funny thing was I had an interesting dream I was flying a F/18 Hornet fighter plan and my wingman was Adam...flying low with his Hornet. Let me tell you Adam you pulled off some good moves man, sure you had no vector thrusting but you gave whoever was chasing us a good run for their money.

2005-08-08T09:22:00.000+10:00

Our last moments together on Australian soil with Shariq, no one cried as Shariq left our sights...but i guess the reason is Shariq was a man who made people smile around him....and all the memories i had of him were happy moments....so no matter how much i think about it and think when or if its gona hit me that his gone....i doubt i will cry or feel sad ...because whenever i think of shariq....it will bring a smile onto my face.

the 5 main driving elements of life as i see it are: Family, friends, love, work, leisure, material goods

2005-08-07T18:52:00.000+10:00

Well the rough cut is completed 2 days ago…and we are all very happy with the result so far. It goes for about 14minutes at the moment, but with some more scrutinising editing we should be able to make the final film shorter. Dad also has contributed by making some background music…its been some good news lately after having to deal with some incidents which were really annoying but adding to the good news……we may be getting a newish family car soon…maybe a Toyota Camry 2003 model….YAyyyy Im so excited ☺ …something that works and looks half ok.

Also on the weekend…Adrian our good mate from school heads off to Switzerland for 10 months….as part of his Pro Handball carrier…me thinks. The boy is very fit indeed….his nickname at school was big man cause he towered over everyone and was muscle bound. But he was a big friendly giant and he still is.

A bit of background on Age..he was our High School Captain. I think everyone looked up to him and funny enough we all still do…his just a great person and very positive person who can motivate people around him. Anyhow hope he has a great time over in Europe…man that’s two mates this weekend I know going away for a long time. Its sorta sad…I mean I wish them well and hope they enjoy their trips but yea its sad to see them go. But

yea what else was interesting…..Oh Dameon…was there….he is an interesting person….he has a Mazda Rx8….Wow….its soooooo cooooool. It has suicide doors man and a rotary engine…$73,000 car. He said it was his first car, the guy is a bit loaded. Plus he is staying at Dicko’s hoise…yes the judge from Australian idol. Believe it or not his minding his house, while he is away visiting family…Dameon is a friend of David’s…he does some type of computer engineeringbut anyhow… he basically met Dicko through family friends or something…he told me before that he used to chauffer him around,,but that was a while ago. I was like how cool is that…you know a celebraty and he lets you stay at his house while his away…and his like nah its normal….and im like “brother that ain’t normal” but yea Dameon’s a cool guy.

There are some people you meet in life and think to yourself...thankyou god. Shariq is definitely one of those people. But sadly he is leaving us…. for Pakistan tomorrow at 5am so me, Sean, Morgan and Ladan are driving to the airport to say our goodbyes to Shariq. We are all gona get some early sleep tonight before we embark on our trip to the Airport. Ladan has been asleep for a good part of today and I’m going to bed early tonight too for the trip to the airport.

Although I lost contact with Shariq for quite some time after high School...metting at the occasional party or beach gathering. Shariq was one of the people who was a great inspiration for my major IPT (information processes and Technology) project and always would tell everyone about it, with this vigore and excitement...that even i who had made the project...had no way of expressing. It always made me feel great when i had someone like that around me....this was re-ignited when we joined again for my Digital Media major project...My short film: With Just Cause. This film is a mamoth undertaking for me...since this is the first film that i have directed. Shariq has been helping me since the first day we enlisted him for the project....he would ring me everyday to check on the progress of the script...i would feel bad when i was not on schedule then, but it was great of him to do it because otherwise...as most of you know...i have a lot of distractions at home..so its easy for me to get carried away with something else. But Shariq kept me on track...and once Shariq began acting...you knew how dedicated this young actor really is. He would always arrive on time to set...and usually with a treat..like a cream pastry thing...which was a really really great start for each day. He would have practiced his lines and it showed...mind you Morgan who was the accompanying actor...who hadn't done much acting b4 was great and I thank everyone who contributed in any way to make With Just Cause.

Farewell Shariq…we will keep contact

Gods speed

2005-08-05T11:06:00.000+10:00

Back in Action

Man a few nights ago i got really thirsty and i mean really thirsty...so i made myself 500ml of Chocolate Milk in a jug for myself...it was so tasty. Luckily there were little side effects from the quantity i had...well at least im still alive i guess.

Shariq is coming over soon and were gona get this rough cut done by the end of the day...for this film..thats the mission. Speaking of missions David gave me this great book: "The Mamoth book of Elite Forces Edited by Jon E. Lewis"...he gave it to me quite a while ago..me thinks. But yea came across it looking for a book and i remembered this creed in it, which is for ballad of the US Army Special Force.

I am an American Special Forces soldier. A professional! I will do all that my nation requires of me.

I am a volunteer, knowing well the hazards of my profession.

I serve with the memory of those who have gone before me: Roger's Rangers, Francis Marion, Mosby's Rangers, the first special service forces and battalions of WWII, the Airborne Ranger Companies of Korea. I pledge to uphold the honour and integrity of all i am - in all i do.

I am a professional soldier. I will teach and fight wherever my nation requires. I will strive always, to excel in every art and artifice of war.

I know that i will be called upon to perform tasks in isolation, far from familiar faces and voices, with the help and guidance of god.

I will keep my mind and body clean ( of all un natural bodily fluids ;) Dr. Strangelove ) alert and strong, for this is my debt to those who depend on me.

I will not fail those with whom I serve. I will not bring shame upon myself or the forces.

I will maintain myself, my arms, and my equipment in an immaculate state as befits a Special Forces soldier.

I will never surrender thought be the last. If i am taken, I pray that I may have the strength to spit upon my enemy.

My goal is to succeed in any mission - and live to succeed again.

I am a member of the nation's chosen soldiery. God grant that I may not be found wanting, that i will not fail this sacred trust.

2005-08-05T00:46:00.000+10:00

Back on Earth

I can see already that this semester will be jam packed semester of uni...I think I was telling Adz this not too long ago. But yea with so much drama and dilemmas...than you can poke a stick at. Currently my mind is like jelly....i have a lot of thoughts in my head and no idea how to process them, I have conflicting opinion from left right and centre. Ok...lets start again....to tell you the truth i felt really shit last night after having a conversation with someone....I have old issues surfacing again and dealing with them now isn't the best time at all.

Anyhow after talking to Sean on the phone...I sorta settled down, stopped me from doing anything stupid. Whats interesting is that both friends...Sean and the other party... were telling me advice but in different ways. Telling people something good is one thing...but the approach is part of it too. Its like when dad wants to tell me something...like say your not getting enough sleep...he says your gona live a short life, get sick and die. Now i know there is a better way of saying it...its just the blunt approach sometimes hurts more than it helps. In the end the advice re-confirmed what i was already thinking...nothing new really…but I needed to hear it from someone else.

On another side note....So far this year...there were three girls of interest....that i had a crush on of sorts and most happened almost like one after another...each had a certain quality that caught my interest but here is the problem....that’s really all there was. the only person that i thought was really worth all the trouble was Anna... A time based Art student...the other two were procrastinations...a way of keeping my mind busy. Like I knew nothing probably would have happened or the chances were really low. You can spend all the time in the would thinking how they may be right or not but in the end.... i think it was worth trying but i think I’m going back to my older method of waiting for someone who actually has more than a few qualities, i guess beyond what’s present on the surface. But firstly I gota finish my video....get on with life really.

Man i got so much to do...i don't know why i waste my time thinking of this stuff.....I really have so so much to do...i wish i could just cut my heart out and just work without any feelings. That way i wouldn't get distracted or anything...I could just get on with shit that has some priority to it.

Anyhow 1 going away party this weekend for Adrian, and i just noticed...my bday is soon too but really not doing anything for it this year..turning 22 isn't a big thing..so yea...then a long long Sunday night for Shariq's going away party...7:30am fucken early shit but gota make the effort for him. I think the load out will probably be me, morgz and Sean...maybe even Amar...i dunno. But yea gona be a sad weekend. Then next weekend i got another birthday on the 13th i think....then Sean's and David's. So yea...hopefully i can pay off all the debts from these bdays...so i can go to Noosa at the end of the year.

Interesting ain't it my last blog was so impersonal and then this...welcome to my core! probably ill be talking about some army shit next blog.

Back to playing SanAndreas...no i mean editing ;)

If only life was as easy as SanaAndreas

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2005-08-03T15:41:00.000+10:00

Heya

i can't believe i've finally got a blog. i thought about this for a while and i thought something like this would be very gay (no offence 2 any1 who already has a blog) i guess the thought of having a place to express myself without having to write multiple emails to people sounded like a sain idea. However, i'm going to try and not make this blogsite like some people i have known who use it wrongly by mentioning real names, which is wrong to do in a public forum and that person is a retard.

What is there to say? ummm...my film project is currently going at full steam i will at this stage have the main component of filming completed by a weeks time. Well at least the rough cut anyways...im so tired dang! falling asleep woke up at like 6.3o but now i am falling asweep..yes i'm so wonwy. otherwise, life has been great my good friend shariq who has been a great support and a inspiration for me for the duration of my film project i just wanted to tell you mate good luck with your future but i doubt you need the luck because.. you will make it where ever you want to..woops i just fell asleep...ouch! laan hit me..*laaaaan* im expecting a call from sean soon...

I'm just going to do a little shoutout to the people that have been very special to me ;

1. Laan - The Best sis money nah kiddin best sis a mum can deliver no money back guarentee on this one sickest cunt on the planet fuk u 50 cent love u legz. there have been so many fukin funny crazy stupid moments we have lived together and laughed at each other with that i can't imagine living a life without these. whenever i have felt down you have been like my big sister even though you are my little sister, your one of the smartest 15 year olds i know and i think that im so lucky that i should be in the guiness book of records for having the coolest sister on this little planet. big hugs mofo

2.Sean - If laan is my sister then sean is my brother simply put. Sean your a funy cunt when your drunk and ur a funny cunt when your not..for the amount of your mum jokes we have said is the extent to which i love you as a friend...no gay shit. you have literally made me the confident and happy person i am today and i have no idea how i could ever repay you other than sucking your cock as you so lovingly put it..lol plus made me say all this swearing and gay shit that i otherwise would never have dared to say. thanks for being a brother through everything in life i have gone through you have been there for me you are a true champ! and i know that success will always follow you no matter where you go.

3.Morgan - We have so many damn interests its not funny and you are so freekin smart it scares me sometimes..but you have a heart of gold and that is what counts keep it real niiiga!! every time i get stuck your talents and brains always manage to save my ass from impending dooms of dead lines and failure. the amount of cool stuff we have done together is imeasurable and i will always enjoy your company and advise for it is always something i can rely on and have a pleasure of laughing with you at the same time...

4.Adam - You are a champ in so many ways always been theere for the bad times and the good ones..andd i know you will one day suceed and be someone really succesfully and i think you deserve the best the world has to offer because i know i cant offer you that but i can say from the bottom of my heart that you have been a great friend and i am proud to have known you

5.David - Your my bravo leader in the thick of battle i can always turn to you and know you will shoot the mofos that are shooting in our direction and not drop your shit and run. Your humour and advise always remind me of the lighter side of life i am greatful for knowing you and i wish we stay life long friends because you are truely ireplacable, keep it real brother.

6. Fiona - in all honesty of all the girls i have known except my sister you have been the most caring and kind towards me and i have always appreciated your advise and attention towards me and i hope that you understand that you mean alot to me. the amount of interesting phone conversations we have had are countless and i am glad to have known someone as bright and confident in their abilities as you, with your talents i'm sure you will reach whatever heights you set out for yourself.

7. Shariq - You have made me laugh harder then anyone else you are someone that is really talented at his art and i always feel great and inspired when you give me advise about anything weather its my imediate life or some trivial matter you advise always strikes a chord..maybe..because your an actor..kidding. i hope that you succeed in bollywood and if not there you will succeed in hollywood.

8. Johnny - Your one of the coolest people i have met bar none and you have also had the highest standard i have ever seen of any living human in their art except maybe shariq. thanks for all the cool stuff you have done with me and i hope we can continue to know each other after uni because i will still think that you are johnny phoreal!

9 Jason - Thanks for all the rude and funny gay jokes we have enjoyed together * winkwink nudge nudge * and all the moments we have had together in the closet your one sexy asian guy haha..anyways but seriously it's been a pleasure to know you and i hope we can keep it tight *wink* for quite some time after uni until i find another man hahahah..

10. Adz - Thanks for your support, you have been a reallly great support in my life lately and i wish to thank you and also say that you are someone really really really special and just in case you forgot you are someone really really really really special.

11. etc - for all the people that have not been short listed i still love you all but i couldnt write anymore today i will write your names in the next blog so stay tuned for my second blog

love and peace to all my marines...

Over & Out..

2005-08-03T11:07:00.000+10:00

I love my cars and I unfortunately have a rather expensive taste....as many of you probably already know. So no little Daihatsu or whatever car will suite my taste. My long term plan is to save up for a cool* car but that’s gona take some time to save up...im looking at 3yrs.

Anyhow recently i saw the trailer for Transporter 2, which looks great....I loved the first one..anyhow there is the new Audi A8 W12....yes people I can spell its not a V its a W12. anyhow it looked hot, so i thought ill go into a showroom and have a look.. There is a dealer out in Artarmon on the Pacific Hw...so me and another mate Morgz came along....now people at prestige car dealers can be a mixed bag....some are nice people who will show cars to whoever who walks in and there are those who want to know what American Express card you have or your previous car...I have had this question asked from me before and its quite annoying...cause we drive a shitty 1983 Mitsubishi Magna.
So you end up having to lie to them anyhow…not that I like it but think of it….car dealers aren’t the most honest people either.

Anyhow we walked in and asked if they had an A8....which by the way costs about $180K. So the receptionist paged a dealer to come show us...the dealer was a nice dude...he knew his cars, but just in case we told him were from a film studio and we are buying a car for the executive director...he believed us...and proceeded with enthusiasm to show us the cars....but the prob was there was no A8 :( as you can guess not too many people buy A8s with an over $100k price tag. He showed us the A6 because it has a cool navigation system computer which is reminiscent to the BMW idrive which the A8 has too….but man its so intuitive....think of BMW as Windows 98 and the Audi as Mac OS X. Anyhow on the Audi the idrive system is called MMi....but see even if I had the money …..the major problem with the A8 is that it has an aluminium frame which makes the car light…which is good…but its insurance price sky rockets too….bad.

I also love Army vehicles and there can be no more Army vehicle than the Humvee...sure it weigs as much as 4 Toyota echos and eats as much petrol as a bus that can carry ten times more people…I think its 20L per 100ks..but i just love the thing. anyhow I called a guy on Carpoint.com.au who was selling a 2nd hand Humvee....for all you who have no idea what a Humvee is have a look here: ( http://carpoint.ninemsn.com.au/DesktopDefault.aspx?UsedCarID=781224&TabID=3328&Alias=carpointau )
The guy was really nice…James I think it was...he was ex-aussy army....he bought it from Kuwait, man the car had an interesting history....apparently the US Marines sold like 300 of these beasts to buy some power generators off the Saudis after the first Gulf war...interesting trade...just makes you wonder why causse the Saudis didn't need that many and ended up auctioning most of them off...which is where this cute little baby came from.

But i think at the end of the day i will end up getting a BMW 530i......the new shape... in about 3yrs time..Should be around $60 - $70k...unless my friends and family convince me to do something stupid and put it for an investment on a property.

* My definition of a cool car I have found is very different to many people...well lets see firstly it needs to fit the following criteria...it needs to be

A. Made in Germany
B. Or...Made in USA (This is due to 1 car in paticular...the Hummer H1 or better known as the Humvee)
C. GPS (I am bad with street directories)
D. Ability to be Up-armoured

*Sorry Ladan about this boring post...and anyone else which this put them to sleep